So lost I cant even start. Do I write about hope? Love? Loss? Truth be told, I miss him. He almost killed my spirit, what I once that was so strong and yet I miss him.
I keep trying to tell myself its not my business anymore, that I need to move on and yet there is a secret tiny place in my heart that holds on to hope, someday, he will change. He emails me everyday. Why?
As for love, I am just connected to him. I feel him, I yearn for him and I can not even tell you why.
Loss, I lost a big fucken hand, I gambled on a risky bet and almost lost it all. In the end I only lost him, I needed to loose him. But he wont go away, he wont dissapear. I am so lost.
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